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Life is short

I’ve never had anyone close to me die before. I see and read and hear about death almost everyday on the news, in literature or from my friends. I think about death very often as well. Sometimes about how much easier it might be, sometimes about how miserable ones surrounding might feel. However, I’ve never been close to death before. How do I take a news like this so sudden. I’m not sure if I know how to grief. I sure do hope I will grief. At least look like it. I know I will definitely miss him a lot. But I know he will be in a better place.
My grandpa. We were very close when I was little. He’d always secretly give me candy before dinner, he’d give me toys he had found and fixed from the junk yard and he’d hold my tiny hands and walk me around the neighborhood. As I grew older though, we slowly drift apart. Because of the busy schedule my sister and I now have. We visit them less and less. Of course I’m still full of joy when I see my grandpa. Instead of candy, he gives me allowances behind my dad’s back, he gives me school supplies he had found and fix up and we talk about school. Even though grandpa is old but I always thought he was so strong and nothing could happen to him.
Lung cancer. That’s what defeated him. Or at least is defeating him right now. How could anyone not tell me until now? Don’t want me to worry. Well what do you all expect me to think now? You don’t want me to worry when the doctor said there’s only 2 or 3 days left? How do you expect me to do that, tell me. And the worse part is that I can’t even go back and visit him right now. At least make the last of it a little better. I can’t even say my good byes. All I can do now is pray for the best.
Life is short, don’t waste it while you still have it. Appreciate what you have in life, appreciate the people you have in life.